PRIS(:

2008-03-03T20:36:00.002+08:00

MOVED!

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2008-01-27T10:45:00.000+08:00

The precious blood of Jesus Christ redeems

Forgiven I’m alive, restored set free.

Your majesty resides inside of me

Forever I believe, forever I believe.

Arrested by your truth and righteousness

Your grace has overwhelmed my brokenness

Convicted by your spirit, led by your word

Your love will never fail, your love will never fail

‘Cause I know you gave, the world your only son

For us to know your name

To live within the Saviour's love

And he took my place, knowing he’d be crucified

And you loved.. you loved, a people undeserving!

This song is really one that God used to speak to me over the past week. Can still remeber that horrible Friday (well at least it started out horrible). Sometimes I think I should just leave my handphone turned off and at home. Anyway, I came to school feeling like a puddle of nothingness (read:emo *cue gasp). Decided to forgo MW for a time of just sitting and reading and praying. That time at the bench on the second floor, wind blowing in my hair, "To Know Your Name" blasting in my ears, and my bible, once again seemingly coincidentally opened to just the right passage, I began to realise how profoundly awesome My God's love is. To think that through all my unfaithfulness, He still took the time and trouble to refresh me in that way, it was just beyond my comprehension.

FAST FORWARD one week and one day, sermon was about knowing the name of God. Coincidence once again? I think not(: I think the point that really spoke to me was that of representing the name of this great and faithful one that I call my God. Was I a misrepresentation? Am I worthy of being called a Christian in the things I do, not just in church, but in my school/family life? That of a servant and of one who truly displays the love of my God. Then again. This reminds me of smth I heard SP say once, that "Humility is a funny thing. Once you think you've arrived, you haven't." How true, how true. Lots of things to get straight, many attitudes to correct. I pray that I'll be able to get through this.

You LOVED a people UNDESERVING

2008-01-06T16:06:00.000+08:00

The harvest from the REALLy impromptou CD-buying spree on Saturday morning (THANK YOU DAD! :)

Yay finally got it back after losing it to the crash of my com last year. I am tending to agree with Jonadab's assesment that it's their most solid album so far after listening to it again. Listening to it again really brings back memories of bus rides to school in the morning in Sec 3/4 where it was perpetually on repeat(: Which reminds me, I HAVEN'T GOTTEN MY TICKETS FOR THE 31ST!!! *panics*

This is the only CD I haven't really listened to yet. Heard it playing at HMV whilst browsing and thought that it sounded much MUCH better than when I first heard it on itunes, so decided to give it a crack. Still LOVE her voice, but I really hope that it doesn't turn out to be like a certain Mcphee's debut - overly synthesized pop/R&B (though I have to admit still very catchy). (does anyone else think she looks real strange on the album cover?)

These dudes have done it again. Solid effort that retains that unique sound of Rascal Flatt-ness. Lol(:

My current obsession((:
The music coming off this album is worth so much more than the $24.95 I paid for it. BY FAR one of the best albums I have had the honour of purchasing. True genius songwriting, music arrangement and absolutely melting vocals.
Fave tracks include "Love Song", "Morningside", "Many The Miles" and "Gravity".
Can't believe I finally got it after about 6 months of waiting and wishing that it'll finally come to our shores and not be stuck on itunes mocking me forever. Reaction when I saw it at HMV was the same as when I saw the Sugarland one. Euphoria.((:

2008-01-06T14:37:00.000+08:00

Finally, here's my "Looking Back at 2007" post:
I think I have said this to death, that this has been the best year of my schooling life. Sounds extreme I know, but it really has been. Can't imagine any other time where I have learnt, laughes and loved so much. The ups have been high, and the many downs have really been the pits, but I am just so grateful that God even thought of me to take me through it all so safely and still find the time to bless me so abundantly.

1. Putting me back into ministry at WEB, and blessing me with anchors like Erika. Worship min and VIVIFIED, you guys have been absolutely amazing. Thank you for helping me grow so much in the Lord. Its been an honour serving alongside you guys.

2. SFC. Woah talk about roller-coaster ride. You people are one wacky and awesome bunch. I thank the Lord for the opportunity to serve Him with yall in the school. Continue shining for him. We're gonna attack 2008 with all we've got for our Lord. ALL THE WAY!((:

3. 07A06. You people really help to make lessons that much more bearable. All of you have something so unique to bring to the class, and we just all gel so well together. Thank you for the great times. Looking forward to a greater year ahead!

4. Friends(:

Sonia: I know that we've had many ups and downs, but they really happen for a reason. Hopefully this new year sees some change and improvement. Thank you for being who you are, caring and hyper and bird-phobic and all. You've got an awesome future in front of you, and I pray that this year be an equally awesome one for you. rock on(:

Clarissa: I am so encouraged seeing you grow in the Lord this past year, especially in your service in WEB. I pray that the Lord continue to guide you as you seek direction in your life and ministry, especially as this year's gonna bring so many changes. Thank you for everything, for being your caring and blur self, and putting up with grumpy me in the mornings.(:

Enya and Cheok: I'm so glad that we all ended up in the same school once again! From SMPS all the way to here. Really grateful for the opportunity to comtinue knowing you gals. Continue being quirky and encouraging selves(:

Erika: You have a real exciting year ahead with *ahem* hahaha. I pray that as you seek and serve, the Lord will continue to reveal himself to you and to nourish you. Thank you for being to one to literally pull me into WEB and for being such an encouraging AWGL, singing buddy and friend(:

Rachael: I'm really glad I had an opportunity to serve with you this year. You've been so encouraging and such a joy to work with. Thanks for all that, and for all the after-SFC chats and sharing. I really do appreciate that we share so much in terms of ministry, and are able to share and encourage one another. You really are someone I respect alot in your walk with the Lord. Let's charge towards 2008!(:

***

Everyone seems to be telling me that this year is gonna be a short one. But from the past three days of school (which I have barely survived), it seems to me that it is gonna be one LOOOOONG year ahead. Trying to get myself pumped up, and it's working. But its not lasting. I pray that this year, the roller coaster ride that I'm in for, is going to be one that is glorifying to God, and one that He will work in(:
Grow me Lord, show me your heart. Help me to see as you see, that I may do as you say.

2007-12-29T22:01:00.000+08:00

HUGE HEARTY CONGRATS TO

MARK AND SUE
(hey that rhymes.. heh)

You guys have been such a fantastic blessing to the Senior Zone, and we love you for all that you have sacrificed and spent for us. May the Lord continue to guide and bless you so richly as you enter this next phase of your lives together. (to quote Ps Kay Kiong, go forth and multiply too! hahaha)

And so today was the wedding that the Senior Zone (and I think I can safely speak for most of us) has been anticipating for a long time. Must take this opportunity to thank ERIKA and ETHEL for traipsing, or rather frantically dashing from shop to shop around West Mall and Jurong Point with me yesterday. Heh. I know I'm an extremely slow shopper thanks to my total lack of decisiveness =/

Beautiful ceremony that was absolutely so so sweet and so typical of the couple. Started off at Grace AOG at Tanglin, which had a very interestingly shaped sanctuary, then mad rush off to SAFRA Mt Faber for the lunch reception.

Erika and I (:

Gan and I (: rawr blur picture.

VIVIFIED performance, which was unfortunately below our expectations. BUT ITS OKAY. Considering the lack of practice, we did alright. You guys are awesomely talented musicians and vocalists, and it's been an honour and joy to serve and sing alongside you. Here's to many more opportunites to come! (((:

4/5 of VIVIFIED (Syahir's missing)
Jerrold + Erika + Me + Yiren(:

On another note, seems like everyone's doing those pre-New Year, post-2007 posts of reflection, evaluation, and resolution. I probably should get around to doing so too, seeing as I think I have ALOT of people to acknowledge this year. But the list is so long that it'll probably take forever. So I'll just do the pris thing and procrastinate a little longer :D .........

SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL IS STARTING.
*chokes and dies*

2007-12-26T20:16:00.000+08:00

Zhenghua Christmas Carnival(:

VIVIFIED!
Erika + Me + Jerrold + Syahir
haha my very first public gig with this amazing buncha people. the first of many more to come I am sure (one of which will be Mark and Sue's wedding:) You guys are amazing friends and vocalists. Thanks for the great times of practice and lunching at Greenridge and wacky arrangements. It all worked out great in the end. All praise be to God(:

Soundcheck with PLEROMA.
(Jon Lim, Keith, Titus, Ming Xuan, Jon Quek, Yiren, Matt, and most recently added BVs Jerrold, Erika and me:)
One of the most fun things of the week was definitely singing with them. hahah. this seems to be the week of many firsts, and this was the first time I was involved in a "rock-ish" set. Sounds exaggerated, but it was such a rush to be able to get completely immersed in (and deafened by) the music(:

Rawr the week is just passing too quickly and I am finding myself increasingly bummed out by the prospect, no reality, of school starting next week. I guess its the homebody in me that's really speaking out. Lazy days at home just chilling with Mom and a good book, leftover lunches, afternoon naps, nail-biting eps of Mcleod's Daughters, and evening walks with the doggie-bow-wows (as Aunty Pauline would put it). Those were seriously the stuff. Just the thought of the mad rush of events and responsibilities that will start on Wednesday is enough to make me bury my head in the ground and pretend that time has stopped. ):

AND I HAVE NOT FOUND MY DRESS FOR SATURDAY!
erikaaaa hellllpppp! ):

2007-12-08T20:58:00.000+08:00

Lord I want more. The fire has been ignited. I don't want it to die off again. I don't want this to be another post-camp spiritual high. I want more and more, and I don't want it to stop. Sure there may be bumps in the road, small and gargantuan, but I want You to be my constant. The past week has really been so amazing, You've shown me how it could be like if I wanted it bad enough. Help me grow so much this month that I will be ready for next year, ready for all that the world will throw at me, help me to never think that I have already arrived, that I have already been completed, but keep me in your hands, under your nurturing. Till I see you, I will live to love you, give you praise, a child in awe of you.

The greatest love that anyone could ever know

That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul

And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home

I'll trust in You

With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come

And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done

And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home

I'll trust in You

I will live to love You

I will live to bring You praise

I will live a child in awe of You

You are the voice that called the universe to be

You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me

And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home

I'll trust in you

You alone are God of all

You alone are worthy Lord

And with all I am my soul will bless your name

I think as you read you can surmise that I have had an awesome week. hahha. started off with SFC Retreat which was a definite eye opener. Other than the spiritual stuff, it was an awesome time of bonding for those there too. From Mark's scarily and very entertaining "high" moments, to seeing how domesticated all my fellow SFC-ers were, to the Kitchen Adventures and chilling out playing "Saboteur." More details when I manage to get photos from Jon Ho (*ahem* pls upload soon! haha).

Envisioning prep on Friday was great too! Spent the morning with the exco seeking for our theme verse, and finally found it in 1 Peter 2:9. 2008, watch out! we're coming at you with this verse as our artillery. May the plans of the Lord be fulfilled((: Rest of the day was spent watching X-Men 3 and gorging on biscuits. -.- haha.

ANNNNNNNNND.....

MISS LU XINYUE has FINALLY come back to our sunny shores! hahaha. WELCOME BACK MY DEAR! took one long lonely train ride to the airport to usher her back Friday night. Pit-stop at Raffles City to get, true to form, a sunflower for her (: Just looking at all the shops while I was there gave me the shopping bug. Can't wait to go shopping with her and with Erika later in the month (clothes for Mark and Sue's wedding! :)

It's gonna be a great and hectic week again. Absolutely cannot wait for it to come. On the other hand it would mean that another week has gone by and I am one step closer to school and CHANGE. whoo. I really need to start being less apprehensive of it. Envisioning is another thing that is so going to stress me out. Pris and public speaking sooooo do not go together. Ohwell it's all in His hands(:

To the people out of the country and enjoying yourselves to your hearts content....

Shantilal: If you're reading this from the States, hope you keep enjoying yourself, and have a good rest at the same time. Don't shop too much((:

Gan: Are you bringing me chicken rice back? hahah. QUICK come back so that we can plan WG farewell for david! haha. have a good time too((:

2007-11-24T10:51:00.000+08:00

past few days have been pretty crazy. flaring tempers, soul searching, and learning to be patient. It has been trying, but I thank God for bringing me through, and for sustaining me, sending people along the way with just the right encouragement/advice with them not even knowing it.

had a great time with the SFC peeps on thursday mapping out our work for the holidays and for next year (LOTS TO DO!!!) and just being the zany people we usually are when you throw the huge group of us into a small confined space (mentor's room). which reminds me...

TIMELINE for Life Con/EW comm is due on the 1st of Dec people! don't forget like I did. now i only have a day to get it done before I (finally) leave for a holiday ):

CLUB MED PHUKET here I come!

Yesterday night was really fun too. Combined CG Gathering at church! The Lord blessed, and we grew. Just looking at the sheer size of us, the original CG that grew so big we had to split into 3, then the subsequent three growing to about the size of the original one, then finally splitting up into about 8 DGs and 2 CGs with the advent of IDT =/ almost like a mini-church already. It was so good too see all the families again, some with new additions, but all still with the same spirit. LOOoooong time of sharing testimonies and all, but it was encouraging to hear how the Lord really used this family to grow and nurture us, in one way or another.
Also glad to say that the powerpoint presentation that Dad tasked me with was a hit. Hours and hours of the last two days were spent pulling it all together, syncing and animating and captioning. Happily, everyone enjoyed it(:

Amanda, Amelia, Sam and me. Dad ambushed us with the camera(:

One big happy family(:

2007-11-19T13:07:00.000+08:00

Today marks the last day of my lone existence in the house, with the parents and bros all gone to Malaysia *melodramatic gasp* abandoning me here to subsist on packets of instant noodles and that half a carton of pomegranate juice in the fridge . *tear*

LOL well it wasn't all that bad. the house is pretty well stocked so I'm covered in that area. past few days have been great, albeit a little quiet.

Open House was quite fun (if not for my silly shoes that causedmy hobbling all over the place), the cleanup was not. Haha rach, emman and I were alternating between cleaning the wire and trying to avoid the mass dance. But i HAVE to give the SC props for organising it, the school looked pretty great and all(:

Spent the past two days over at Lakeview with Aunty Pat, Ryan and Rachel. Nice to be hanging out with them after not seeing them for so long(: and somehow they really remind me of myself when i was younger =/ haha.

American Music Awards this morning! IT WAS SO SO GOOD. i bring you the highlights (for me at least:) :

Rascal Flatts performing "Take Me There." really awesome(:

Rihanna and Ne-yo. oh man this one was genius((:

CARRIE UNDERWOOD! she won THREE awards. seriously one of my absolute favorite artists(:

okay. this was BY FAR the coolest thing to happen at the show.
Sugarland and Beyonce collab on "Irreplacable"
SUGARLAND! ahhh(((:
one of the best performances of the night.

Kristian Bush + Jennifer Nettles = SUGARLAND(:
woots.

2007-11-14T16:13:00.000+08:00

BV training was so fun yesterday!

haha all that dueting and exaggerated singing of "Somewhere Over The Rainbow" was really so fun.

and Yiren is so cool man! we were listening to a recording of "Lord I Offer My Life" and there he goes into musician mode (including the intelligent-looking squint) and says "Its in F. there's a B flat in there. THERE THERE IT WAS." -.-' like i said, freaky.
thanks to erika, syahir, yiren and keith for making the time such a blast(: jenny and viola did a great job yesterday too.

can't wait for the Zhenghua Christmas thingy. singing with Erika, Syahir, Jerrold and Jamie is gonna be such a blast. not to mention rehearsals and all that jazz. woohoo busy busy but fun(:

2007-11-11T21:05:00.000+08:00

07A06 pre-BBQ!

"The Devil Wears Prada" + One tub of B&Js (strawberry cheesecake and chocolate therapy:) + Rach, Quek, Perdana and myself + a few very comfortable sofas + the midday heat

=an afternoon of brainlesness.

and that was the afternoon preceding the bbq. was really fun hanging out with them, running around the supermarket like cheapo semi-mad people trying to find the best deals on fishballs, going slighty nuts when we found out that they were out of marshmallows(??!?!) and trudging to rach's house in the heat.

07A06 BBQ!

though there aren't many, i will still let the pictures do the talking(:

First shot of the evening(:

K.Loe!(in striped shirt) Long lost comrade, barbecue guru, and fire god. LOL.

the anti-socials/bridge club. haha just kidding.

*chen chen chen chen* a supremely candid and retarded moment. i think the smoke got to our heads(:

me, jill, QUEK and zhiwei!(long lost comrade #2)

07A06(:

2007-11-10T20:15:00.000+08:00

ever been caught in a situation that you promised yourself you would never get caught in? (okay don't get worried as you read this because its not that serious. it's just ranting. lol) my mind is seriously in shambles just trying to detangle all my thoughts and feelings. ugh this is turning emo. *changing channel*

Man today was a full day. Up at 7am (7am on a saturday morning!?!!?!) and out the house half an hour later.

Breakfast with the Ezzos, which was slightly weird. haha. From video to real life. But a really lovely couple. Hope that they can continue their great work with GK and RTHOYT.
Then it was off to Lot 1 for a movie with Erika, Gan, Jon Lim and Ming Xuan (:

"The Game Plan" is such a cute show. really showcases the Dumb Jock at his finest. not to mention the dog is so so adorable. okay the girl is too but I think that (sadly) the dog still is cuter. haha. definitely go catch it if you can.

Took a leisurely ride back to church for service, which was good as usual. both worship and sermon really spoke volumes. Our God is a consuming fire, a jealous God. He demands all of us, and will never give up on us. Sounds dictator-like? Well, no. He is a God of so much love, that He wants the best for us, and from us. Stir it up in our hearts Lord. Then off for dinner at Blooies (have no clue how to spell it) which was well rather mediocre, but still really grateful for it(:

And I am finally home. Now that I have sufficiently bored you with the mundane details of my day, and have also run out of things to say, I shall just sign off now. haha(:

2007-11-02T22:28:00.000+08:00

WELL.
finally a new post. and a new skin. it'e refreshing i must say.
kinda lighter than my previous one. and the gummy bears were definitely the clincher. haha.
you'll know that love is more, more than what we define it to be, more than the labels that we put on it, more than the earthly manifestations, when you get a glimpse of eternity through the eyes of the Lord(:

haha I feel so accomplished that an IT noob like myself managed to change the skin all by my lonesome! okay well maybe not all by myself. HUIPING helped. okay okay she helped ALOT. haha thanks LOO!

and like she said, I'm also the only one who hasn't updated since the post-exam post. there's really actually been nothing that I had to post. or wanted to post anyway. some things have simplified, some have become more complicated. and yes I am being intentionally cryptic. I guess I just don't feel like baring my soul to the world wide web. (or anyone for that matter. hmm.)

anyway. school is just about wrapping up. OP was alright. I'm really proud of my group. we really pulled it together, despite having to go after the Lucas group and their coooool video, and before the Webber-forecast group. LOL. just one more deadline and I can kick the carcass of PeeDoubleYou once and for all(:

2007-10-08T17:57:00.000+08:00

okay so i seem to be one of the only ones left who has not posted a post-promos post (thanks Loo)(: so here goes..

the end of promos were rather anti-climax. instead of having that overwhelming, all-consuming and self-igniting sense of joy that i was supposed to feel, it was more like a: "promos over. wow promos over. cool(:" haha i really don't know what is wrong with me. to add to the weirdness, i just feel so lost when i come home after school or from anywhere else and have ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do. like. totally nothing. no goood reason to pick up any piece of academic literature and mug the living daylights outta myself. good, OF COURSE. but the sense of loss is not. kinda points the way to the conclusion that studies had so consumed my life that it was my SOLE purpose. the only thing i had to do and live for. don't get me wrong i am ABSOLUTELY COMPLETELY STUPENDOUSLY ELATED that the exams are finally over. but... truth is i'm getting bored. haha. well i guess once lessons restart again that madness will too...

1) SFC Retreat Planning
2) Life Con/Easter Week 08 Planning Meetings
3) Open House Prep
4) full time church commitments back on track

... and so begins the list.

i'm looking forward to it though. looking forward to the excitement and the stress, the work and the fellowship(:

speaking of fellowship, I would just like to take this time to give a HUGEEE THANK YOU to all the people that have constantly covered me in prayer and encouragement through this period of time. i really truly appreciate it ALL. Mom and Dad, Erika, Sonia, Clarissaa, Jon Ho, Rachael, and all you lovelyyy A06 and SFC peeps (you guys make school that much more tolerable:) to whoever I have missed out, THANK YOU too(:

OF COURSE the person who deserves ALL the kudos would be my awesome Heavenly Father. He has been just so amazingly faithful and real in my life that it is unmistakable. this has been such a great learning experience through the hard times and the good, and i attribute everything i achieve (or not) to my King.

now to start on SFC planning... and .... *drum roll*... peedoubleyou. :/

2007-10-01T17:13:00.000+08:00

Think, and die.

Man! i can't believe it came out in the Lit paper today and i still had NO IDEA how to apply it! haha. Lit was... bleagh. i can only hope. the questions were relatively uncomplicated, but i think the freezing cold conditions, the lack of time, the excess of paper given (see how i'm blaming everything other than myself) is gonna make me bomb it.

well since (once again) i have not blogged in an eternity...
geepee was alright. "FOOD, GLORIOUS FOOD!" was the question. the more i think about it the worse my essay seems. haha oh well i guess all those nights with Dad and the Asian Food Channel paid off. lol.
chinese was well, foreign (as usual). hoping to scrape by(:

ahhh why am i blogging? to'th econs notes!

2007-09-15T21:54:00.000+08:00

feeling somewhat disconnected. so much has transpired since i last blogged. don't get me wrong i am not slipping back into that emo phase from not too long ago (quite determined to never let that happen again).. things just feel uncomfortable. in more ways than one, in more ways than it should. oh well. (*remembers the silly action rach taught me* haha)

studying with jon, rach, sharon and jill on friday was a blast. haha. the stupid arguments about benzenes and arenes and whatever else-enes was absolutely hilarious. and now i know what ENDOPLASMIC RETICULUM(some cell thing. nothing to do with human waste) and STERIC HINDRANCE(chemical mother-in-law syndrome ahahaha) are. thank you jon(: felt so enlightened in my oh-so un-science brain after that. LOL. SFC girl study gang+Jon, we are not going to flunk out! by the grace of God, we will carry on. His (steadfast) love endures forever(:

GP lessons have been. woah. ha thats like the best way to describe it. seriously the best i've had. i'm too lazy to go into the whole long story, so go check out joQuek's wonderful blog for details(:

WEB today was great. filled in last minute BV for jamie. arrangements rocked man! thanks to siang's impromptou jazzy stylings, we now have ideas for the next Fishbone event. hahaha. jason shared such a cool psalm which i think will be my anthem for the time being:

Psalm 136
1 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good.
His love endures forever.
2 Give thanks to the God of gods.
His love endures forever.
3 Give thanks to the Lord of lords:
His love endures forever.
4 to him who alone does great wonders,
His love endures forever.
5 who by his understanding made the heavens,
His love endures forever.
6 who spread out the earth upon the waters,
His love endures forever.
7 who made the great lights—
His love endures forever.
8 the sun to govern the day,
His love endures forever.
9 the moon and stars to govern the night;
His love endures forever.
10 to him who struck down the firstborn of Egypt
His love endures forever.
11 and brought Israel out from among them
His love endures forever.
12 with a mighty hand and outstretched arm;
His love endures forever.
13 to him who divided the Red Sea [a] asunder
His love endures forever.
14 and brought Israel through the midst of it,
His love endures forever.
15 but swept Pharaoh and his army into the Red Sea;
His love endures forever.
16 to him who led his people through the desert,
His love endures forever.
17 who struck down great kings,
His love endures forever.
18 and killed mighty kings—
His love endures forever.
19 Sihon king of the Amorites
His love endures forever.
20 and Og king of Bashan—
His love endures forever.
21 and gave their land as an inheritance,
His love endures forever.
22 an inheritance to his servant Israel;
His love endures forever.
23 to the One who remembered us in our low estate
His love endures forever.
24 and freed us from our enemies,
His love endures forever.
25 and who gives food to every creature.
His love endures forever.
26 Give thanks to the God of heaven.
His love endures forever.

in different versions of the Bible, the "love" can be substituted with steadfast love/mercy/loving kindness. how awesome(:

so that in short has been my week. what seemed to be the longest that i have ever faced.. i suppose we never stop seeing seemingly longer bad times, seemingly low off-periods. irony is that it always gets worse. or seemingly worse. okay i'm starting to ramble. my cue to get off the computer and get some sleep.LOL.

2007-08-20T23:19:00.000+08:00

-Lord Of Lords

Brooke Fraser

Beholding your beauty is all I long for

To worship You Jesus with my soul's desire
For this very heart you've shaped for your pleasure

The purpose to lift your name high

Hear and surrender in pure adoration

I enter your courts with an offering of praise
I am Your servant come to bring you glory

As is fit for the work of your hands

Chorus: Now unto the lamb who sits on the throne

Be glory and honor and praise
All of creation resounds with the song

Worship and praise him the Lord of Lords

The spirit now living and dwelling within me

Keep my eyes fixed ever upon Jesus' face
Let not the things of this world ever sway me

I'll run 'till I finish the race

Singing unto the lamb who sits on the throne

Be glory and honor and praise
All of creation resounds with the song

Worship and praise the Lord

Now unto the lamb who sits on the throne

Be glory and honor and praise

All of eternity echoes the song
Worship and praise him the Lord of Lords

Bridge:

Holy Lord
You are Holy

Jesus Christ is the Lord

Now unto the lamb who sits on the throne

Be glory and honor and praise

Call all the saints to join in the song
Worship and praise him the Lord of Lords

i am blessed beyond measure in this period of my life. this has held the most abundant joy, the most painful heartache, the steepest learning curve that i have ever experienced. people might say that its a delusion, that my faith is a figment of my imagination, but i attribute all this to my Lord of Lords. My Saviour King. all praise be to His name.

2007-08-14T22:38:00.000+08:00

apathy. that seems to be my buzzword for this period of time. why? i don't really care to find out...

before this turns into an emo post, let me qualify myself. the size of my class had been diminished once again, by the abrupt departure of (one of my closest classmates) fe. gah. i think A06 seems to be going through a phase, much like the one i am going through. everyone seems to be floating through school, trying really hard to complete what we have to do and prove that we indeed will make it for promos. to borrow from and old cliche, the tension is so thick that you could cut it with a knife. well, all this save for the random bursts of craziness that we still have that keeps A06, well, A06(: and for that i am eternally grateful.

i think the suckiest part of this phase of immense stress is the fact that it feels as if i am not allowed to be stressed.. sounds weird ehh. its like the faith that i have, the badge that i wear deems me unfit to be down in the dumps, for i am supposed to be the one depending and trusting in God and so everything should be alright. everything SHOULD be alright, right? was reminded by jon.quek about living it from the inside out.. logical, and perfectly reasonable. so what explains the apathy to it all? i just don't seem to have the time to care. not enough time to care about anything other than surviving the day, and trying to get enough sleep at the end of it all. in God's strength i am made perfect. why don't i feel "perfect"? everyone seems to be telling me what is expected of me, what i am forsaking/not doing. every little slip up with that badge on seems like a huge horrible mistake. argh. argharghargh. this is so not coming from me. an emo post.

don't we all need some cheering up after that horribly *shudder* emo post.. it'll blow over eventually.. pictures from the class outing!

the sun, the sand, the surf(:

jill and i, the great adventurers off to tackle the rugged terrain of the asphalt cycling/blading path of East Coast Park.

me and emo jamie! hah. we still love you jamie(:

very willing to be monkeys for a day. the tree provided an endless source of entertainment for us "suaku" city people. hah.

the happy campers. can you say "I <3 align="center">

2007-07-27T22:31:00.000+08:00

there is only one word to describe today. WOW.
stepping down ceremony for J2 exco, then stepping up for us. it was such an experience, i can hardly find the words to describe it. i thought that i had it all under control in the morning. just go in, get prayed over and introed, then it'll be over. i never expected to feel the way i felt sitting there listening to chaplain speak. all those feelings of inadequacy and not being able to meet the expectations of the teachers, my fellow exco and SFC mates, and most of all God, all came rushing back to me. i literally broke out in cold sweat. i admittedly spent alot of the chaplain's exhortation thinking about all the worst case scenarios. what if i failed. what if i am not up to standard. what if...

then kevin came up to speak, and it was really as if God was using him so powerfully to speak to me. he prob will never know how reassuring his words were. haha. he spoke of David, and how God did not look at the things that Man looks at, but He looks at the heart. i was chosen for a reason, to fulfill the purpose that God has for my life at this point. i never ceased to be amazed at how God is just so awesomely faithful, even as we keep stumbling in having faith in Him, He is just so so patient to steer me in the right direction again.

so the rest of the ceremony passed quite uneventfully, except for when i had to intro the new exco, and in true priscilla fashion, blanked out when faced with public speaking. sigh. certainly something i really need to work on. the badge just felt so heavy in my hands man. the responsibility was palpable. all i can do now is depend on God to bring me on the journey he has mapped out. its gonna be one heckuva ride(:

on a lighter note, dinner was AWESOME! haah. botak jones is da man. hahahaha. thanks to jon ho for insisting on going there. huge portions, good value, relatively low prices, nice casual ambience, and GREAT fellowship. what's not to love? gained some really weird insights from jon, and bonded real well with rach(: oh yes and witnessed the scandalous... muaha. pics to be up soon once i can steal them from someone. hee(:

2007-07-06T20:52:00.000+08:00

okay so i know that i have not blogged in a very significant amount of time, partly because i have been too busy lazing around, and partly because i have been too lazy. heh. well needless to say ALOT has transpired since I last posted, so i will just mention the things that i actually remember in a hopefully organised way...

1. BAILEY! this is one of the biggest things that has happened since my last post, which was about Amber's death. well we decided to give Cocoa a companion by getting a new pup! coolness. she is the epitome of a golden retriever(well she isn't exactly golden) pup. frisky, greedy, mischievous, and downright lovable. and since pictures supposedly speak a thousand words, i might as well show you one instead of going on and on describing her...

so this is the little tyke that has been chewing up the shoes, socks, chairs, and plants in the garden(eww.) for the past three weeks. entirely aggravating, but still completely meltingly adorable once she flashes that completely melting aren't-i-so-absolutely-cute-that-you-just-want-to-squee-when-you-look-at-me puppy dog face(:

2. YOUTH SUNDAY! gosh this was such fun, i just enjoyed myself so so so much. OH and one of the highlights... i got to wear the "Chief Usher" tag. haahah. cheap thrills. but it was cool! AND i got one of them walkie-talkies. hahaha.

me, denis, uncle paul(haha what a pose), bee em and jingyi. ushers slacking at the back of the sanctuary at the 12pm service, listening to the sermon(which was fantastic btw) for the third time in a row. fun(:

3. okay this is the part i hate recounting. its the part about going back to school, and facing the horrible experience that comes with going back to school after june hols in JC1. COMMON TESTS! oh my goodness. never before has the world such a disaster seen. i've only gotten back 2 papers, but by the way things are going, i would not have been promoted if this were promos. i have, at this point of time, ZERO credits to my name(you need 35 to get promoted).HAHA! man its so bad that its funny. especially the part where my ENTIRE class flunked math. can you imagine. all got U except alina. wahhhh. the funniest part was right after the exam when we all walked out, in stiches because of the sheer unbelievability of the paper. we all went to vivo after that(our last paper) to soak in the loss and to try to celebrate. i will blog about that another time once i manage to steal the photos from the class blog. joQUEK quick upload! so now the only class pic i have is the one from that cafe with the funny name in potong pasir that we were at on wednesday...

woohoo! 07A06! you guys make life in school so much better. can't imagine the school day without all the laughs, crap, and complaining that we fill the day with(:

on a random note, i am seriously addicted to solitaire. like really. i can't go on the computer or on my ipod without playing a game or two or fifteen. heh. its so weird i'm now dreaning in green black and red. also addicted to the chendol ice cream from island creamery. as xinyue would put it, de-lovely. its just so YUM. put it on your things-to-eat-before-i-die list(:

2007-06-10T21:20:00.000+08:00

how do you say goodbye?

goodbye to a companion,

an adoring fan who loved you with all her heart no matter what

goodbye to one of the best listeners in the world,

one of the gentlest, most regal creatures on God's green earth
how do you say goodbye?

then i realised.

you don't.

i still see her everywhere.

in the holes in the garden, of which she used to dig

the faded spot on her favourite rug

i still see her reclining upside down on her back as a reprieve from the heat

sitting forlornly at the back waiting to be fed.

i still see her.

i will never forget.

in my heart, i will never say goodbye.

i love you, amber(:

okay before anyone starts questioning my sanity as you read that i've written a poem for my dog, let me just say that the past three days have been among that hardest in my life. why? because i've had to say goodbye to one of my best pals on earth. AMBER, my golden retriever succumbed to lung cancer and bone disease on thursday. we had to put her down because of the bone disease, which fused her joints together, making her unable to walk ever again. it was the most heart-wrenching thing to behold, seeing her sitting there unable to move or eat. i don't know which was worse. seeing her suffer, or watching dad carry her to the car for her last car-ride(to the vet). naturally, the family spent the rest of the evening in tears. needless to say i learnt stuff from that experience, most of which was to cherish my darling Cocoa ALOT more.. she only has about 3 to 4 years left here with us, and i think i will be even more of a wreck when she passes. oh well. just a fact of life. it sucks but that doesn't make it any less present.

well the past week, other that the above incident, has been quite pleasant. sang for WEB yesterday, and i must say that CLARICE did a wonderful job as a first-time worship leader. yayy clar! haha. the percussion master-plan was a pretty genius concept, sadly we didn't use it in the end(:

WG was really fun. had a good time filling in that reflection worksheet, about priorities plans pace and purpose. it really got me thinking. really hope that i can apply what i reflected on... but i thik the highlight was seeing syahir in a pink shirt and the pink hairband. hahaah! should've taken pictures, but im no that evil. it was the result of a lost bet. which made it even more hilarious since he was such a good sport. haha! good job dude(:

PW meeting tmr! whoo i can't wait. seems like i haven't gone into town in such a loooooong time, and that i haven't seen my friends in so long. its going to be a VERY welcome change in environment(:

...turrah!...

2007-06-02T12:54:00.000+08:00

speechless; tuneless.

wahhh.

i was supposed to be singing at WEB today.
but noooooo.

been sidelined due to an inflammed throat and horrible cesspool of phlegm residing somewhere in the recesses of my throat.

it burrrns.

have i grossed you out yet?

haha sorry.

but it indeed sucks to have just wasted a whole week away drifting in and out of consciousness due to the MOUNTAIN of medication that the doctor prescribed.

and another thing that makes this week suck even more, is the fact that I MISSED SFC CAMP! can you believe it. i was only there for a day, then had to go home because the speechless thing was starting to take effect. BAHH. i really wished that i could've stayed for the entire thing. to think of all the bonding and learning that i missed out on. eurgh.

but i have to say, that the time that i did manage to spend at it was THE BOMB! hahas. major kudos to the planning committee for organising it, i really had a truckload of fun and learnt alot.

------------------

divine~

this is a prime example of something that i have been craving, but am forbidden to eat. i guess now you can figure out why this post has been... shall we say, rather bitter. and the severe chocolate deficit that i am facing right now DOES NOT make things better...

any sponsors? heh(:

2007-05-21T22:45:00.000+08:00

it was bound to happen

my emo spell has begun. cue scary music *da-da-da-dahhh*

eurgh

it just feels like the entire world is going to the dogs.

just finished reading my latest copy of TIME. the articles just brought so much news of doom and gloom that it was enough to make even Huiping emo.

the humanitarian crisis in Zimbabwe(once one of Africa's most prosperous nations, but because of the senseless acts of a leader, now a country that is slipping into destruction.)

the impending war betwee Israel and Palestine.

the story about the 19 year old father in the United States who "cooked" his 2 month old daughter in the microwave for 20 seconds.

and the list goes on. eurgh.

i was so depressed after that, kept asking myself why. why do these things happen.

because God let them.

that was the answer that my subconscious whispered to me.

God

the sovereign Lord over all the earth.

although i don't understand it, i pray that His will be done in the world.

gosh this is so uncharacteristic of me.

i need to join weichiang's campaign.

Raising Awareness for Emo Kids (RAEK!)

haha.

i seriously think that its a worthy cause(:

ON A LIGHTER NOTE...

the week that passed was pretty good. filled with much joy and laughter with friends. (Lord i thank you for filling my life with people like these. they are a true blessing and make life so much better)

for example. a normal boring GP lesson was seriously livened up by the sudden urge to cam-whore with the s16 gals. haah.

st margs unite! haah.

what in the world were we thinking!?

TRYING to pose like gangsters.(sadly we were looking the wrong way. haah:)

AHA! got it right this time. don't we look intimidating. ahhahaha.

GP CLASS! (i think archimedes is our name. what kinda spastic name is that?!) but we love each other all the same(:

dear bumbums! ping, me, jillian, enn and raa(:

haha these people really make GP that much funner<3

wg this week rocked! spent the time in worship and prayer, which i thought was certainly a timely thing to do. reconciled with some stuff that the Lord has been dealing with me in terms of my walk, and i must say that i walked out of Hope 5 refreshed. praise God, and kudos to Mark and Galvin who planned the program(:

can't wait to face the week ahead, our last week of school. to use a phrase that has seriously been overused on this blog, time has really flown. its the end of term. we're THAT much closer to common tests and promos. oh man. may we all survive(:

2007-05-15T20:27:00.000+08:00

today was just one of those days that progressed very nicely from a bad morning to a all-in-all fun day. let me count the ways...

it started raining pretty heavily just as i began the trek to the college from the kindergarten carpark, i.e. i got pretty wet. and going for morning worship with a wet uniform it definitely not a fun thing to be doing.
chinese test! what a horror to behold the first thing in the morning. but i have to say that lao shi was really so cool to let us listen to our mp3 players while taking the test! my goodness. never before heard of. i love my lao shi. hehe.
GP was just friggin fun man. haha. cam-whoring with the s16 gals(raa, enn, gillian) and huiping and pris goh was just so entertaining. haha. hopefully will have the photos up once raa decides to upload them.
math was its usual dull boring self. more tutorials that i have not even ready being answered at lightning speed in front of my very eyes by ms yeo. it got to the point where i had to ask myself "did i copy this already?" bad bad bad. really must make the effort to prepare much more in advance. heh.
break was fun. debated with jo chen and ping on the possibilities of spontaneous human combustion. hahahahah. mr ho better not let us run in the sun for PE ever again!
and JOY OH JOY h1 teacher was absent, and PE was cancelled! whoop. that really made my day. so had a pretty nice break in the afternoon with jamie(the paranoid one) and jonadab(for a short period) in the library(:
ME was like the best that it had ever been. played this hilarious game that mrs ho invented(i think). we lined up in a straight line outside the classroom, then she would shout out two choices(e.g. apples-step left, oranges-step right), and we were to choose our preference. gosh it really did reveal alot about us. like the fact that shengky preferred a romantic date to hanging out with his pals. haha! and there was one, where mrs ho shouted out "homework or movies," and the whole class stepped in one direction... except. julian. haha! the poor fellow was just torn. or maybe he didn't hear. but it was just so side-splitting to see him in the middle when everyone else chose homework. though this does raise up an impt point. i really admire julian in the way that he dares to set himself apart so clearly in order to stick to his ideals. "mugger" as he may be, i think we all have something to learn from him. not just to study really hard, but to dare to be different. as christians, we always claim to have that power. but i think that when push comes to shove, i wonder how many of us(definitely including myself) are willing to do that for the God we serve. just a thought to chew on... (:
stayed back after school to help matheus unveil his grand banner that was supposed to stretch all the way across the canteen. but alas, there was not enough raffia. poor thing he was so disappointed. haha. i really hope that it is still hanging there in all its glory tmr morning and not broken... it was tiring but fun nonetheless, hanging out with ping, cheng, chiang and mat. (cheng, the "cut here" thing was hilarious! haha:)
and the thing that really ended the day on a weird note. the bus ride home. well it started out very normal, normal conversation with weichiang. then. suddenly. he started rubbing his neck saying that he felt something crawling. paying no attention, i just kept yabbering on. then. suddenly. he reached to his collar and flicked his finger downward, brandishing a spider. AHH. I HATE SPIDERS. and the WORST thing was, guess where he flicked the it. AT ME! EURGH.it started crawling up the front of my blouse before i frantically flicked it off. i had to really control the scream that was about to exit my mouth(to keep from embarrasing us further.imagine, 2 grown JC students panicking about a spider on the bus in front of everybody. what a sight. haha). i could have killed the dude. argh. gosh it gave me chills the remainder of the ride. i swear i felt it crawling on my leg again, but then again it could have been my over-active imagination after that fright. haha.

ok ok before you start wondering how i have so much time on my hands so as to be able to chronicle my day like this, let me set the record straight. i actually don't. *guilty laugh* i have TON of homework staring at my face. i'm just so bored and have no motivation to continue with it. blogging was the next best alternative. which reminds me. econs is half done. ARGH! TURRAH (:

2007-05-11T21:32:00.000+08:00

WOW. this week has really flown by. seems like just a few days ago i was meeting my lovely PW group to discuss the blasted GPP. glad to say that all in all its been a GOOD week(: Praise the Lord! had a great time with the 07A06 peeps and all the others during breaks etc.

oh yes.

i would like to take this opprtunity to wish

LOO HUI PING!

a very very very very blessed birthday today. thank you for being such a wonderful friend girl. i really appreciate you always having a take on the lighter side of life. lame as it is. may you find the ability to walk very soon(: haah.

oh yeah. another birthday shout-out to..

MELISSA NG WEI YING!

my dear dear loooong time friend! haha. happy seventeenth girl! haven't seen you in ages. we must must plan a 4e5 outing soon or something. have a great year ahead pursuing your dreams(:

ok i shall be very nice at this point of time and do some shameless advertising for some pretty cool people(and also cos i have run out things to say...)

ATTN ALL ROMANIS HOUSE PEEPS,

VOTE THE SIX FROM A06 FOR SC!

joanne quek, rachel wong, yap wei chiang, matheus ting, emmanuel goh and perdana putra.

these people are highly deserving of your votes so please do support(: hehe.

alright enough of that. it seems out of place on my blog, but oh well. the things i do for my friends. haha(:

2007-05-05T10:17:00.000+08:00

I see the King of Glory

Coming down the clouds with fire

The whole earth shakes

I see His love and mercy

Washing over all our sin

The people sing

[Chorus]

Hosanna, Hosanna

Hosanna in the highest

Hosanna, Hosanna

Hosanna in the highest

I see a generation

Rising up to take their place

With selfless faith

I see a near revival

Stirring as we pray and seek

We're on our knees

[Bridge]

Heal my heart and make it clean

Open up my eyes to the things unseen

Show me how to love like You

Have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause

As I walk from earth into eternity

*HOSANNA - HILLSONG UNITED*

amazing song off the new united album. the bridge really spoke to me(as seen in the highlighted portions). just the notion that this Mighty God came to save and change our lives is so powerful. yet it doesn't seem to be enough to change our lives completely. the song speaks about pleading with God to really break through into our lives, and change it, that we might be effective disciples of Him and for His glory.
-Lord make this the cry of my heart. amen

ok so this is another of those lazy saturday mornings where i am in the mood to do absolutely nothing. really. activity is the furthest from my mind now. oh wells.
went for dinner with a great buncha ppl last night.
pris su, jurane, chiang, emmanuel, mat and matin(:
whee(: has a blast at swensens(and thoroughly burned a hole in my pocket once again. pris oh pris why can't you keep the compulsive splurging at hand??) then spent most of the bus ride back comparing the annoying-ness of alarm clocks and morning rituals with chiang. it was a rather non-intelligent conversation, which God knows i needed. haha! it was fun though.
all in all, it was a good end to a rather crappy week. thanks gals and guys. we should totally do this again(:

just read a friend's blog. was comforting to see that i was not the only one going through this *ahem* thing that i am going through. i haven't actually told anyone(execpt my Creator God), been trying to rationalise things in my head, hoping that my fairly logical mind would be able to reason things out. its just really been a struggle. seeing that i was not the only one struggling though was a real blessing. thank you friend, though you may never know how you have encouraged me(:

ok then. i am off. singing at WEB today! (thank you Lord for the opprtunity to serve You. i am humbled and grateful. may you be in every aspect of worship today.) SOO not looking forward to the journey there. gahh :(
till next time. turrah(:

2007-04-30T21:28:00.000+08:00

whee. gosh these mid-week "holidays" are really so great for perking you up on a blue blue monday. haha. i really am so so grateful for the break tomorrow. for some reason it feels as if monday has sucked me dry already.

went back to st marg's today to collect my precious O'Level cert. whoo. Four santi years of my education boiled down to that one single sheet of laminated paper. it was such a feeling to receive it fromt the receptionist. haha. said hi to mr anthony. i never thought i'd be saying this but i actually miss the chap. haha! it was like seeing a long-lost uncle again when i saw him. had a brief chat that really encouraged me, then it was so long till speech day(:

then it was off to island creamery to meet dear santis cheng, ping and nilah for ice-cream and to have our very pathetic "class outing", since the rest had "opted out." it was sad, but fun nonetheless(: it was also a very sinful outing man. macs fries and a coke, then half a mudpie at island. AHH! but i enjoyed it immensely. haha. thank you guys for the company down. i really appreciate it. i really enjoyed our interesting conversation*winks* haha.

the santis(nilah, ping, cheng and me) at island! haha. tummies full of creamy goodness. (ok that was a weird phrase. heh:)

i just finished this self-questionnaire thingy that i stole from cheng's blog. my gosh it was freaky. especially the shuffled music part. haha! read on for the gory details... muahaha(:

*ready, get set...... GO!*

001. Real Name
Priscilla Lily Samuel

002. Nickname
pris / cilla

003. Single or taken
single

004. Zodiac Sign
leo

005. Male or Female
Female(and lovin’ it)

006. Elementary School
st margaret’s primary

007. Ipod
Yes!

008. How many buddies on your list?
93

009. Friendster name?
none

010. Hair Color
black

012. Hair Long or Short?
Mid-length

14. Eye Color
Black tinged with brown

015. Are you health freak?
Nope!

016. Height
167cm

017. Do you have a crush on someone?
No.

018. Do you like yourself?
YES YES YES

019. Braces?
nope

020. Think you're awesome?
YES(:

021. Piercings?
On my ears(one pair)

022. Tattoo?
nope

024. Surgery
None thank God

025. First piercing
ears

026. First best friend
Can’t remember

027. First Award
Lagi can’t remember

028. First Sport You Joined
Swimming(:

029. First pet
hamster

030. First vacation
phuket

031. First Concert
Psalty(the big blue bible!)

032. First love
God

Favourites
033. Favorite movie
Red Dragon(at the moment)

034. Favorite tv show
CSI!

035. Colour
Brown/green

036. Music
too many to pin-point one

039. Drink
Carbonated drinks

040. Body part not on the face
fingers

041. Cartoon
Scooby-doo

042. Favorite piece of clothing
My jeans!

043. Brand Of Clothing
topshop

044. What do you sleep with?
t-shirt and shorts(why do you care?!)

045. Favorite School
You are so not going to get an answer to this one

046. Favorite Animal(s)
Dogs and tigers

047. Favorite Book
A Time To Kill – John Grisham

048. Favorite Magazine
CLEO and seventeen

049. Eating
nothing at the moment

050. I'm drinking
Nothing at the moment

052. I'm about to
Go onto question 53

053. Listening to
Devotion – Hillsong United(All of the Above)

055. Waiting For
The urge to do my homework

056. Watching
The computer screen

057. Wearing
t-shirt and shorts

Your Future
058. Want Kids
Not really…

059. Want to Get Married
yes

060. Careers in Mind
Teacher, singer(heheJ), PR exec…

068. Lips or Eyes?
eyes

069. Hugs or Kisses?
hugs

070. Shorter or Taller?
taller

072. Romantic or Spontaneous?
Erm. I don’t know… whatever.

073. Nice stomach or nice arms?
I don’t really care

074. Sensitive or Loud?
both

075. Hook-up or Relationship?
relationship

076. Sweet or Caring?
sweet

077. Trouble Maker or Hesitant
Well, definitely not the trouble-maker

Have you ever
078. Kissed a Stranger
NO!

079. Drank bubbles
Erm…

080. Lost glasses/contacts
YES

081. Ran Away From Home
NO

082. Broken a bone
no

083. Got an X-ray
yes

084. Broken Someone's Heart
I have no clue

086. Turned Someone Down
In what way? vagueness man.

087. Cried When Someone Died
yes

088. Cried at school
yes

Do You Believe In
089. God
YES!!!!!

090. Miracles
YES

091. Love at first sight
No clue. Haven’t experienced

093. Aliens
no

094. Magic
no

095. Heaven
YES

096. Santa Claus
no

097. Sex on the first date
WTH?! OF COURSE NOT!!!

099. Angels
yes

Answer Truthfully
100. Is there someone you want to be with right now?
no

--Here is the deal: 1. Put your music player on shuffle.2. Press forward for each question.3. Use the song title as the answer to the question.And there you have it...
01 How does the world see me?
Lifted me high again

02 Will I have a happy life?
cry

03 What do my friends really think of me?
Majesty (?!)

04 Do people secretly lust after me?
name above all names (what???!)

05 How can you be happy?
Shout your fame

06 What should I do with my life?
More to see

07 Why must life be so full of pain?
Let your mercy rain

08 Will I ever have children?
devotion

09 Will I die happy?
For this cause

10 What is some good advice for me?
I don’t want to be

11 What is happiness?
I will sing (haha!)

12 What's my favourite fetish?
Burn out bright

13 How will I be remembered?
Whenever you remember(woah)

14 What is your love life like?
We’re young and beautiful (huh?!)

15 What's your life motto?
How can I keep from singing

16 What do your parents think of you?
God only knows (OMGoodness. Hahahaha!)

17 What's your favourite hobby?
A foggy day (rightttt)

18 What does your best friend really think of you?
Never let me go

19 What's the worst thing about you?
Chariot (no link!)

20 Describe your mind.
The game of love (erm…)

21 How will you die?
forevermore

22 How does your crush feel about you?
Crush (WTH?! Hahahahaha)

23 What is your wedding going to be like?
Twenty-four

24 What about your honeymoon?
Dangerous (oh my)

25 Describe the last day of your life.
Jesus, lover of my soul(:

26 Why does life suck?
All I Want is You

27 Why does life rule?
I just can’t live a lie

28 What will you be famous for?
You’re everything

29 What's the craziest thing you'll ever do?
desperately

30 Will you achieve your goals?
Voice of truth(erm yeah. Right)

31 What will your future job be like?
One way

32 Your party life?
3X5[Live form the X Lounge]

33 Overall, will you be happy?
Lessons learned

34 Or will you just deal with it?
We fall down

The Tragedy of the Human Condition
Don't read the question(s) until you've named the 20 people.
cheng(cos I stole this from her blog. Heh:)
ping!
clarissa
sonia
nilah
jillian
fedora
jamie lai
wei chiang
emmanuel
shengky
matheus
enya
pris su
hilary
syarah
Sharon
raa
Erika yap
sam leong

How did you meet #14(pris su)?
Sajc 1st intake, through en

What would you do if you didn't meet #1(cheng)?
Well I wouldn’t be doing this quiz. Hehe. Would have missed out on a great friend(:

What if #9 (wei chiang) and #20(sam leong) dated?
Omg. The weirdness. Haha.

Would #6 (jillian) and #17 (sharon) make a good couple?
NO! they’re both girls.

Describe #3 (clarissa).
Tall, skinny, fair, the envy of most girls. Haha. Blur queen. But one of my bestest friends(:

Is #8 (jamie lai) attractive?
Yepp. Esp when she smiles that paranoid smile(:

Describe #7 (fedora).
Tall, skinny, fair… haha. REALLY fun to be around<3

Know of any #12 (matheus) family members?
Erm. No.

What would you do if #18 (raa) confesses to you that she likes you?
Omgosh that would be so freaky. Right bumbum? Haha.

What language does #15 (hilary) speak?
Funky English! haha

Who is #9 (wei chiang) going out with?
No one(I think… haha)

How old is #16 (syarah)?
16

When is the last time you spoke to #13 (enya)?
Today(:

Who is #2's (ping!) favourite band/singer?
RADIOHEAD(she would kill me if I said anything else right… haha)

Would you ever date #4 (sonia)?
EURGH! No way hosay. Hah. She’s a girl! And one of my best friends. Eww.

Would you ever date #1 (cheng)?
NO. she’s a girl too. eurgh

Is #19 (Erika yap) single?
yapp. Haha.

What's #10's (emmanuel) last name?
goh

Would you ever be in a relationship with #11 (shengky)?
Gahh no! haha.

School of #3 (clarissa)?
SAJC

Where does #6 (jillian) live?
Somewhere out east, in Tampines

What's your fave thing about #5 (nilah)?
Her zen calm and sense of humour

Have you seen #2(ping!) naked?
OMG NO! haha.

FINALLY!! The end!!

WHOO. now wasn't that long. go try it for yourself it you are hopelessly bored or on the brink of tearing your hair out because of stress. this is all in the name of FUN! enjoy!

2007-04-25T21:55:00.000+08:00

wow this HAS to be a record. nearly 2 months without blogging. and i suffered no withdrawal symptoms whatsoever. (:

life has a funny way of dealing things to us. in manners we think that we expect, but actually don't. its annoying to be caught off-guard by your emotions. makes it seem as if you are no longer in control of things. feeling helpless while being held captive by emotions that so definitely should not be there is a real bummer. makes me wonder if there will be a similar sense of helplessness when we surrender to God.. when we allow every part of our lives to be His and for His purpose. is that even humanly possible? i used to think that it was. sad to say i am having doubts.
oh Lord give me the desire to entrust you with my life, allow the words that i sing reflect the true state of my heart. amen.
i know that i am being awfully cryptic but i guess this post if here for the purpose of ranting. so if you will, just indulge my brief lapse into emo-land.

okay onto happier things... met a new friend today through dear soni. JURANE! boy that girl can sing. if you ever see her around school be sure to ask her for a song. it is definitely going to blow you away. (or humble you like it did me:)

07A06. you guys are a super-duper buncha ppl man! i have really enjoyed our times together. from the really weird antics of shengky and emmanuel during chinese to the maniacal laugh-a-thons with fe jamie jill and ping. its kinda dulled the pain that school is afflicting on me. haha. thanks guys(:

well this post has been sufficiently awkward. i think its the lack of sleep getting to me(dang santi leaking aircon). will try to make the successive ones more coherent.(: till then, turrah santis!

2007-02-27T21:45:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness gracious me. i have not blogged in a record amount of time. well not alot has transpired since you last heard from me. school home eat sleep. repeat 5 times. home church eat sleep. repeat twice. thats the story of my life.

don't get me wrong, i am grateful for the normalcy and the humane schedules for the moment, and it is for that very reason that i do not want things to change especially after 2nd intake. I LOVE MY CLASS and i don't wanna "lose" anyone..*ehhm hear that hilary.. hehe* 2nd intake would also mean that the serious work has begun and there will be no more room for fooling around.. well not as much anyway.. this is really so typical of me. get comfortable in circumstances and then bemoan change. sigh. sermons have been repeatedly droning on about getting out of my comfort zone, and i know that it is true. its just really hard to sometimes. to put your COMPLETE trust in the Lord that He will see you through the situations and waves of change. to trust that even though you don't get what you want in the end, that if it is in the will of God, it would be the best thing for you. its the whole lowering of self and putting God on the very top, on His own without anything else, that has me struggling. but i believe that God will see me through this time of "growth" relatively unscarred (:

school has been fun fun fun. hanging out with cg mates and just goofing around during lessons is really the bomb. friday was both good and bad, what with playing Pepsi-Cola and Murderer("kill weichiang first!...") for two hours and having a lengthy lunch at macs(:
we got trashed at PE(floorball) today AGAIN. arghh. whatever happened to our winning streak? did the winds change? being hit by a spell of REALLY bad luck? or maybe we just got cocky. hehe. nevertheless, it was real darn fun.
ohyes and the class blog is up! check it out at the links. kudos to geraldine, huiping and hilary for doing such a fantastic job(:

ok once again, it is time for priscilla to run out of things to say and go and do her homework. blahh. TURRAH!

2007-02-10T20:25:00.000+08:00

ITS OFFICIALLY OVER PEOPLE.
yesterday culminated in a bucket of tears and in me COMPLETELY losing control of my emotions. it was so agonizing just during the waiting period, while clarissa, sharon, enya and i were sitting in the cab on the way there, and while we were sitting in line in the hall waiting for our turn. i felt so jumbled up inside, and so dazed about what was (finally) going on, that i just started crying even before i got the results. after Mr Anthony handed me the slip, i was shaking so bad that i had to run out of the hall to open the slip.i could just hear everyone screaming and their eyes expectantly latched on me.

to cut the long story short, i found out that i had nine points.

nine.

blinking nine points!

this was the epitome of mixed feelings. i was so so glad to see the single digit, but at the same time crushed to see the SAME single digit. sigh. i know A LOT of people feel like slapping me right now just for saying this, but its honestly how i felt. SO MANY people were expecting me to do better than at the prelims (or at least it felt that way),and i expected a better score. but it was only after someone actually commented on that very fact that i completely lost it and broke down. i was embarrasingly sobbing like a baby. thanks so much to clarissa and leona and huilin who were there to console me. you guys are the best!(and cheok i am waiting for those pineapple tarts! hehe) i shall not repeat that loooong thank you dedication that i made at the end of the exams last year. just ref to the previous post yeah. but this one thing i will say:

TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY.(i shall not milk a single drop of credit:)

shopping that night was remarkably theraputic. hahas. i spent eighteen dollars on earrings alone! gosh. im going out of control. hahas. dinner was fun, koping food from everyone. thanks for being so so "generous." hheheh. thanks to clarissa, sam, xy and jo for making my evening such a rocking one :D much love.

alas, i have once again run out of things to say. so till next time. turrah!

2007-02-04T19:57:00.000+08:00

wheehoo! okok its been an oober long time since i last posted, but seeing as i changed my blogskin, i thought it was occasion for a shoutout(:
i changed it all by MYSELF! AHAHAS. no xinyue to help me. it was an unsurprisingly daunting task for a computer suaku like me, but i did it! muahaha.
school has been a mad rush, tutorials, cca and such. but im starting to like it more and more, thanks to my fantastic cg 07A08 and og4! i really thank God for putting them into my life. they have been a super duper fun buncha ppl(:
went down to vivo after church today with xinyue and sam for SHOPPING! the train ride was so loooong, but filled with great conversation *winks*. hheh. oh you should have SEEN our eyes pop out of our heads when we saw the beautiful retail paradise that awaited.(okok too drama:) but seriously, i felt so excited to SHOP! to cut the LOOOONG story short, i managed to find a suitable CNY outfit that would pass my parents examination thanks to xy who brought me to Red2. AND, i managed to get a rather unusual top from topshop! it has billowy sleeves, and according to xy is rather bird-like -_-" sam and xy were really childish, assaulting me with the balloons that they embarresingly asked for from the starhub advertisers walking ard. xy apprently couldn't resist the lime-greeness of it. hhehe. all in all, it was a spectacularly fun day. thanks guys! :D
mehh i have run out of things to say, so i will just end my post here. turrah!
(*next post: the emotional drain of the o'level results. mehheh...)

2007-01-14T21:03:00.000+08:00

what an utterly gloomy and depressing day. i absolutely hate weather like this. it is so deadening to the senses. give me sunshine and heat anyday! i keep singing that immortal song from "Annie" on days like this.. *the sun will come out, TOMORROW! betcha bottoms..* but it never does. bleagh.

alot has transpired from the time i last posted to now. and i will spare you the gory details. just know that it hasn't been pretty. these past two weeks have been the most trying time of my life, a time of truly discovering my identity in Christ and the issue of surrender to Him, through the situation of going to a new school. this whole "new environment" thing is, as i realised, something that i do not take well to AT ALL. things have been getting better very slowly, and i continue to pray and seek God for the strength and wisdom to make it throught this transition period.
i would like to, at this juncture, give God all the glory for all that He has accomplished in me this past two weeks. some very valuable lessons and applications have been planted in my heart, and i am truly grateful for that. thank you Lord.
props also to my family and friends, sonia clarissa anita for walking with me through this time, and all the support that you guys have given me :D

ORIENTATION was an eye-opener, to put it nicely. heh. i for one am not the most rah-rah person you will ever find so you can tell that it was an event that i wasn;t really looking forward to. but props definitely goes out to my OGL, Evan, and the whole of OG4 for making it a relatively painless experience. hehe. seriously, you guys were awesome! gooo Saverdoooo! we brought sexy back! :D

my schedule is already piling up on top of itself! can you believe it? and tutorials have not even started. gahh. i think this was the thing i was dreading most about jc. the absolute lack of down-time. SAD! ok i know that was totally random but i just had to let that out. heh.

alright enough moaning about school. i've wallowed enough. heh.
babysitting duties beckon next saturday! letitia and mathena. YAY! those two little ones are seriously too adorable for words.. what with their cherub faces, rosy cheeks and the ultimate cincher, THOSE CUUTE AUSSIE ACCENTS! they really know how to make adults fawn over them. hee.

ok i have to make a hasty exit here. dinner-buying duties are calling my name. woohoo. that was sarcasm by the way. heh. till next time.. remember to floss! GOD BLESS :D

2007-01-01T10:57:00.000+08:00

Happy 2007 Everyone!
i know that i haven't been the best blogger because i have not updated since time in memorium, but i have deecided to start with a clean slate and post on the second day of this new year.
somehow this year has truly been lacking in festivities. the lack of activity during the Christmas and now New Year season has been strange, quite foreign to me. of course this allowed for more opportunities for quiet introspection.
the cut-down in time spent dashing around from one function to another led me to have free time to think about what these holidays really meant to me. was it only based on the holiday spirit when it should have been based on something far deeper... anyway, i will leave it at that to avoid subjecting you readers to a very emo monologue, keeping my private thoughts private. heh.

went out with the clique to Seoul Garden on friday. gosh that trip truuly burnt a hole in my pocket. although it was a fun time of rehashing and catching up, i left the place feeling so miserable about the amount of money i spent on it. bahh. oh well. you live, you learn, you move on. a big thank you also to sonia who tried to lighten my despair by sharing the extra cost. that ten dollar note you gave my definitely brightened up my day. hahas.

tummies full and very bloated, but smiling nonetheless(:

saturday was a mad rush. one place to another, from church for BTW follow-up, to centrepoint for some VERY rushed shopping and lunch, to aunty jessie's house for guitar pract, to the cell end-of-year gathering. but it was a mucho fun day(: BTW follow-up meeting was good, it was really great meeting up with the gals and auntie Angela (hee:) again. Centrepoint was a madhouse. people EVERYWHERE. the only thing i managed to get were these divine mint humbugs from marks and spencer. seriously. those little mints with the chewy toffee centre are really really good. cell party was REALLY REALLY FUN! had a blast hanging out with the girls-sam, amelia, gerrie, ariel, joell, letitia and mathena- although we ranged in age from 3 years to 17 years old. hahas.

sunday was very uneventful. home to church to home again. didn't even countdown. i went to bed at 11pm. hhehe. the first year in MANY years that i didn't countdown. but my sleep was just as sweet all the same:D

SYTYCD update! i was quite upset when allison was sent home. she belonged on the show for at least another week. but the dances were fantabulous! benji and heidi totally stole the show with "Black Mambo," but coming in a close second (in my book) were donny and travis with that off-the-hook hip hop routine (see me trying to incorporate the gangsta slang.) hahas. nigel might have hated it but i LOOVED it. so freakishly cool.

i cannot BELIEVE that school is starting tomorrow! this is not happening! i am alternately feeling miserable and trying to psyche myself up for orientation tomorrow. the former is occuring more frequently. arghh. i am going to wallow now. do not disturb. heh.

2006-12-20T21:45:00.000+08:00

SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE! (spoilers*)

-xinyue
PRIS, heres your video. you owe me one(:

2006-12-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

So, today was simply de-lovely(: hehe. I shall not go into details. Oh yes, by the way, XINYUE here! hehe. yeap, invading pris's blog AGAIN.
Priscilla was so eager to show me her So you think you can dance videos, and she just dragged me in front of the com. and started to show me all her collections. But I really have to cherish these moments, because my dear friend RARELY/ NEVER go "gaga" over stuff... as in, y'know, guys blah blah blah. OOPS. i shall not venture any further into the topic before I get slapped the next time I see Pris.
I guess that computer "suaku" wouldnt know how to post videos, so i will do it for her. HERE IT IS- one of the dozen videos she showed me. (hey! where is the silly video?)

THANK YOU PRIS!

...for that bottle! thanks for the effort for finding it for me! now I can check that off my wishlist(:
...for dinner.
... for all the fun.
... for the ride home. (actually thanks to her dad. heeh)

My com. is irritatingly slow, and I've deprived from sleep for the past week.
TURRAH, for now.

2006-12-14T09:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN TO LU XINYUE!(:hehe. here you go dear. Happy Birthday. even though it seems that you are all alone on this very special occasion, remember that God is watching over you from heaven and He's going to be with you not just today but all the days of the rest of your life. P.S. your pressie will be delivered to you when you come on sunday! so you better come(:

i just got my posting results for the PAE! SAJC ARTS! yeah. just like i wanted it. THANK YOU LORD(: don't know why but i just felt so enormously relieved when i saw the result. oh well. SAJC, here i come!

i know that this is a very short post, but i don't have time to make it a longer one. hehe. will post again later today if i feel like it. turrah!

2006-12-13T19:28:00.000+08:00

i just realised today that there are only two more weeks of my seemingly unending holidays to go. it just seems so surreal that academic life is going to start again so soon. sigh. it is bittersweeet indeed.

anyway, went to vivo city with nicole on monday! it was so nice to catch up with her after about a year of non-contact. i still remember the many sleepover sessions we had when we were kids, and how we just loved dressing up and being really girly. hahas. those days of yesteryear seem so far away. hehe(:

the dresses at zara. almost got into trouble there(:hehe

jailbirds! dresses from pull and bear(:

taking a well deserved break at vivi(:
i found my DREAM DRESS at forever 21, but unfortunately i don't have the picture to upload*tear tear* i will add it to my christmas wishlist.hehe.

went to see "Jack and The Beansprout," a W!LD RICE production yesterday with aunty pat. it was absolutely fantastic! a really fun and funny production which delved into the nuances of life in Singapore through the story of Jack and The Beanstalk. from loan sharks to a No#1 hits-spweing golden harp(don't ask), a Tiger Beer lady to domestic helpers hanging out of windows while cleaning(accents included), this pantomine should NOT be missed; a definite must-watch(:
other than those, my life has been rather uneventful. i've still been combing the internet for SYTYCD(So You Think You Can Dance) videos. I'M ADDICTED I TELL YOU! especially to Benjelle! (benji+donyelle=benjelle) heehee(: its just so nice to watch. i so wish that they had the DVD out..

gooo Benjelle! hahas. aren't they the sweetest couple.hehe(:

2006-12-08T21:58:00.000+08:00

okay i know i haven't posted in an epic length of time, but here i am now. take it or leave it.. hehe. as you can see, i have a new blog skin, and this can be attribited to none other than the ever media-savvy LU XINYUE(thanks again dude:)
well i shan't dwell too much on the period of time where i did not blog, and will instead dwell on the more recent past and immediate future:D

BREAKTHROUGH WEEKEND was really great. i learnt a HUGE amt of lessons and the breakthrough sessions were very enlightening. but imust say that the thing i loved the most abt this time was my group! angela, amanda, sam and pamela, i love you guys! thanks so much for the truly honest and transparent times of sharing we had. it has been really rewarding for me, and i say this from the bottom of my heart. i won't forget that late night chat about money and dating. heehe.

with that said... eurgh i am going nuts sitting at home and doing nothing really productive.. besides combing youtube for "So You Think You Can Dance"(gooo benji and donyelle:), and Gia Farrell(you have got to check this gal out. her vocals are absolutely AMAZING) videos, i have basically been doing nothing. i pray that the days ahead will be filled with some activity. if not my mental capabilities will be going AWOL for a very long period of time.
see, i'm already rambling.. gahh.
so i guess its goodbye till the next time i feel inspired:D

2006-12-08T20:21:00.000+08:00

Xinyue is here to blog for Priscilla. And this is done without her permission! haha. Hopefully, you wont scream at me for this. Anyway, dont worry, nothing bad. hehe.
Once again, Priscilla proved herself to be THE computer "suaku". haha. See the new blogskin? Ya. get what I mean. I did it for pris. hehe. (Pris: just gaining some silly credit here. and YES, i'm terribly bored) Distinctively, i remembered adding something else on her blog, previously.

NAH!

anyway, i will also have to THANK pris for looking at my silly compo! yay!
Pris: Sad to say, but there will be more compos. I think reading my argumentative essays are less painful than reading my stories, eh?

Hope to see you(pris) soon! you promised :D
Like what Pris always say: "TURRAH!"

2006-11-11T21:26:00.000+08:00

I CAN SEE IT PEOPLE. THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL. CAN YOU?
5 DAYS TO THE END. ALL GLORY BE TO GOD.
WHOO this is so surreal. the black cloud over my head is starting to blow over. this past month has been hell on earth[pardon the language]. there has just been so much going on in my life that i haven't been able to stop and take stock of it all. yet at every turn, my Heavenly Father has been there to show me the way, never letting me stumble. and for that i am eternally grateful. thank you Lord.

had this really good convo with a "long-lost" friend yesterday. it felt really good to be communicating with her again after so long of.. well, not. that conversation left me with so much to think about and re-evaluate. the way i was able to relate with her experiences was just so encouraging. thank you my dear friend, i will rmb all those PROFOUND quotes you have endowed me with, and put them into use(: just always always remember to guard your faith and realtionship with God so so jealously, and never let it go. He has a plan for you that will blow your mind, and i hope that you will be able to find the answers soon. will be praying for you(:

well the fantasising abt POST-EXAM ACTIVITIES has already begun and the wishlist is starting to take shape. all im going to say is that the length of the list far exceeds the thickness of the stack of money that is going to be spent on it. hehe. can't wait to spend time with my friends and just let our hair down and enjoy the sweet freedom.
okay thats all im gonna be saying for today. back to studying so that i can get this over and done with, with peace of mind that i've done my best(:
turrah!

2006-11-02T22:27:00.000+08:00

The gate is wide
The road is paved to moderation
The crowd is kind and quick to pull you in
Welcome to the middle ground
It's safe and sound and
Until now it's where I've been
Cuz it's been fear
That ties me down to everything
But it's been love, Your love
That cuts the strings

[chorus]
So long, status quo
I think I've just let go
You make me wanna be brave
The way it always was
It's no longer good enough
You make me wanna be brave
Brave, brave

I am small
And I speak when I'm spoken to
But I am willing to risk it all
To say Your name
Just Your name, and I'm ready to go
Even ready to fall
Wided-eyed
Take this fowl compromise
Why did I
Try to keep it all inside

I've never known a fire that didn't begin with a flame
And every storm will start with just a drop of rain
But if You believe in me
That changes everything
[NICHOLE NORDEMAN.] [BRAVE.]

woohoo yet another song. i know, i know, OVERKILL. but what the heck! its a NICE song. and the link for it is on the sidebar. clickk to listen! its really nice(: [kudos to xinyue for helping the "sua ku" me put it on the blog. heehee. yourock!]
okay i will make this short and snappy. lit today was pretty alright. MUCH better than the prelims. i thought to poem was quite meaningful. will upload it when i get my paper back.

PLS PLS PLS keep my brother Michael in prayer. He was warded in Mt Alvernia's Critical Care Unit this morning for what is suspected to be extreme fatigue. the docs ares till running tests but the hope is that he will be fine by tomorrow. pls pray that God will grant him a speedy recovery and that He will sustain my dad and mom who are busy caring for him too. thanks(:

okay off to bed for me. its been a long day. im tired and sleepy and drowsy. will update soon. turrah!

2006-11-01T21:41:00.000+08:00

Everyone needs compassion
Love that’s never failing
Let mercy fall on me
Everyone needs forgiveness
The kindness of a Saviour
The hope of nations

[chorus]
Saviour
He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever
Author of salvation
He rose and conquered the grave
Jesus conquered the grave

So take me as You find me
All my fears and failures
Fill my life again
I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in
Now I surrender

[bridge]
Shine Your light and let the whole world see
We’re singing
For the glory of the risen King

--MIGHTY TO SAVE. HILLSONGS AUSTRALIA--

whee. my new favourite song. it always reminds me that my god is MIGHTY, over the numerous trials and challenges i face day after day. Indeed, He can move the mountains of my life. i pray that you will claim this as your prayer, and let God help you through(:

gahh Lit tmr!! my head feels so utterly EMPTY. even though this is the first time i have studied so hard for the exams. sigh. well just go in and do my best i suppose. nothing else TO be done at this point in time. ALL THE BEST TO ALL SITTING THE LITERATURE PAPER TMR! WE WILL GET THIS OVER AND DONE WITH AND DO IT WELL! GOOOOOO PEOPLE! HEHE :D

okay off to bed now. wanna be well-rested for tomorrow.
oh. and before i go.
i just want to acknowledge.
mommy, you make THE BEST BROWNIES on the face of this planet.
seriously.
they cure all forms of physical, emotional and mental distress.
they should be their own food group. under MEDICINAL.
muahaha. :D

2006-10-24T19:11:00.000+08:00

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, when you face trials of every kind, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance." James 1:2

Today has been a particularly harrowing day, physically, mentally and emotionally. the drive that i once felt that i had is slowly starting to diminish, and the light at the end of the tunnel getting dimmer. I thank God today for that verse that He gave me, sorta pushing me forward and giving me new strength to carry on with life as it is.

Well, today was pretty fun. Mel, Addie and Shona are pretty interesting people to hang out with. haha. had a good time reminiscing about school and our class over laksa(lunch) today. (hope that you guys managed to get your math qns sorted out:)

ok i think thats gonna be it for today. too tired to think of anything else interesting enough to say.. turrah!

2006-10-22T21:12:00.000+08:00

WHOO. this has been an absolutely MADCAP week of studying, mugging and more studying. i have never studied so hard in my life. ironically, i promise that i could literally feel the intelligence seeping out of my head the morei studied. sigh. PLS UPHOLD US IN PRAYER! we are going MAAAAAD.
anyway, many many thanks to clarissa gan bang bang and sonia and banu and xinyue and jo for being my study supports this past week. may we continue to uphold on another as we mug(:

whee totally looking forward to my much tmr with the CF gals. haven't seen them in oh-so long. (really miss you guys and the constant joy you put in my life.) can't wait to get started on CCIS prep yes?? haha.

was totally fun today in church, what with me and sam trying to get a nice little photo and my psychotic brothers and their friends doing their utmost to ruin the shot. grr. IT TOOK FOREVER! but i love you guys anyways.

well, i guess i have said all i wanted to say. this was a really boring post no? sigh. sorry can't help it. all intellectual resources have been diverted.
turrah!

2006-10-13T19:38:00.000+08:00

then sings my soul
my saviour God to thee
how great thou art
how great thou art

Indeed Lord, How Great Thou Art. well, today officially marks the end of my secondary school life. throughout the day, it had been nagging at the back of my mind, as we ran around taking pictures and doing crazy things for the last time as a class. the WHOLE time. i wonder if it had been gnawing at any of my classmates other than myself. nonetheless, i am really glad that we ended the day on a high note, what with running around pestering teachers for picture a-la-the paparazzo, and jumping on each others backs(don't ask).
well for making my time in st margs what it had been, a truly joyous experience, i have only my friends and teachers to thank. so here goes.

(in alphabetical order)
ANITA: thank you so so very much for all the times we had sitting together. it has truly been so rewarding for me. i will never forget my capitals! continue to MATURE in your thinking and always rmb to be grateful for where you are in that point in time. to many great years ahead in sajc! may the Lord bless you and your family(:

BANU: you never fail to bring a smile to my face, and all the times i have had with you have been happy ones. really enjoyed sitting with you for lit, and i will never forget. you are one who will really go very far in life. i pray that you will find your groove and dance your way to success. God bless my dear, i will never forget you(:

CLARISSA(gan bang bang! hehe): words can never express how grateful i am that God put you in my life. you have been a constant source of encouragement and laughter. i pray the Lord will continue to lead you as you figure out your identity in Him. i am proud to be able to call you one of my best friends. may goodness and mercy follow you ALLthe days of your life. and i forgive you for all the times you have left me with you-know-who when you wake up late. hahaha.

JOANNE: hello girl. i have had a blaast getting to know you better this past year. i can honestly say that i have never met ANYONE like you. continue to have that dogged perseverance in everything you do. don't settle for the staus quo(and don't start singing HSM here arhh.. ehhe). you are capapble of so much more. push on and see yourself succeed. i wish you all the very best in EVERYTHING that you do(:

LEONA: cheok! my good good friend. i still rmb the first time i stepped onto the school bus in primary three. you were the first friend i made. i am so thankful that our friendship has stood the test of time, and that today, 7 years later, i can still call you my friend. your sunny disposition and constant cheer never fails to brighten up my day. i really hope that we end up in the same jc(: all the best my dear.

LU XINYUE(hehe): we've had our rocky times and our silly times, and i thank the Lord for sustaining our relationshiop thus far. your quotes are really one of a kind. keep up that wonderful spirit of yours and you will soar through ANU and even HARVARD. never forget your identity in the Lord. God bless girl(:

SANYA: sunny sanya, where do i begin.. you are one if the most unique people i have ever met. continue to never be afraid of showing people who you are, and always remain oh so honest in your dealings wiht people. geog lessons have been a blast, and i really enjoyed sitting with you while all the OTHERS were absent. ahhem ahhem. ahaha. continue to brighten up every room with you sunniness, and NEVER lose hold of God. ever.

SONIA: you have gone through so much my dear, and i believe that the Lord is using these situations to shape you and to mould you into what He wants you to become. so never ever lose sight of Him and His greater plan for your life. i am proud of you, that you have been able to pull through so much and so far, and i pray that God will continue to give you the strength to face these challenges as you meet them everyday. its been great having you as my friend, and i will never forget all the late-night convos we have, and will cherish it. all the best in everything you do girl. may the Lord bless and keep you and your family(:

SAM!!:heyloooooo. thank you so much for befriending me this past year. i am deeply appreciative of you coming to be my friend when i was initially friendless in church. i cherish our friendship alot and i pray that God will give us more opportunities to get to know each other better. rock on girl!

well, thats the bulk of the thank yous that will be going out today. (if i have missed you out pls just tag and i'll be sure to add one for you:)
so on the ending note, i would like to acknowledge yahui, aunty serene and rachel and all the CF dudettes who have been so dilligently praying for us. we could not have done this without your support. i deeply apreciate your prayers(:

alright, FINALLY signing off now.. turrah!
p.s. pictures will hopefully be up by the time the weekend is through. :D

2006-10-05T21:22:00.000+08:00

For all You've doneI will lift my voice
And shout aloud Your praise
For all You've doneIn our hearts our lives
Will never be the same
For all You've done
I will tell the world of what You've done in me
Our hearts we give to You
With our lives we shout Your praise
For all You've done
-planetshakers: For All You've Done

PRAISE GOD FOR ALL HE HAS DONE IN MY LIFE. Every trial and tribulation, every joy and triumph, i give YOU all the praise Lord.
Let me just take this opportunity to give all glory to God for my prelim results. They were beyond my wildest expectations (9 POINTS!!?!?!). This is truly testament of the power of prayer. It would not have been possible if i had done it on my own strength. SO THANK YOU LORD.
thanks also to my parents and all CG folks for praying for me and my friends. It is truly a really important support for us. you guys are FANTASTIC!

well this has been a whirlwind of a week. triple whammy over three days. was caught completely off-guard by my compo results.. i expected to fail, but instead what came my way was a glorious 24/30. praise the Lord. same for my physics. made the leap from a FAIL during mid-yrs to an A2!! sorely disappointed for emath though (all the careless mistakes), but i am still truly grateful for the result. well those are pretty much the only few standouts.
its over even before it feels like it has begun.

last week of school coming up. this epitomises the term "bittersweet", though i am getting the feeling that it is more bitter than sweet. 10 years in polka-dots and the routine of life in st margs coming to an end. too soon. this is affecting me so much more than it feels it is affecting my classmates. i suppose i'm an all too sentimental person. but it has been a GOOD ten years of my life. Cried much, laughed much, learnt much. sigh. well this is getting a little too sappy to be appropriate for this point in time. so i will keep the tearful monologues for a later date.

now back to THE issue of my life. studying. bahhh.
turrah! (:
to God be the glory.

2006-09-01T12:15:00.000+08:00

HOLIDAYS! (yeah right) it does not feel anything like the holidays have come.. so totally consumed by the madness of the impending prelims.
teachers' day was not bad i suppose. but more of a flop than last year (no offence to the ppl who worked so hard to pull it off. you guys did a GREAT job:) its just that the vibe was completely non-existent. everyone was too busy worrying about the maze and the suffocating heat to be able to pay tribute to our teachers appropriately. BUT there was one highlight. ACES DAY WORKOUT. that was by far the most entertaining display of childishness i have ever seen, and not from US mind you , but from our beloved teachers. guess the exam fever has fried THEIR brains as well. we all had a REALLY good laugh. (thank you teachers)
anyway, this is a belated HAPPY TEACHERS DAY going out to all those educators out there. we truly appreciate the blood, sweat and toil you put in for us.

ok i am off to do that which gives me much pain. study. turrah(:

2006-08-25T17:44:00.000+08:00

GAHHHH. chem pract today. i totally screwed up. eurgh. guess my run of good luck has officially ended. you wanna know what happened? well maybe you don't but im gonna tell you anyway. (hehe. you're reading this aren't you?) well firstly, my worst fear came true, not once but TWICE! eeek. when i was heating the iron chloride solution, the half of it blinking flew out of the test tube!!! it happened with some other stupid solution too. i was soo ANNOYED.
grr. gonna vent now. move out of the line of fire.

2006-08-11T20:44:00.000+08:00

*cue fanfare and trumpets and orchestra* TO GOD BE THE GLORY GREAT THINGS HE HATH DONE! like giving me an A2 (A2!!!) for CHINESE!!!! oh my goodness. i think that this is the strangest thing that has ever happened in the history of mankind. okay so maybe i am exaggerating but i was really completely stumped when i got the results. all i can really say now is a HUGE HUGE thank you to God and to all my friends and family for encouraging me all the way (you guys rock:)
this has been a great day. hah! i just feel so light and twirly. that may not even constitute a proper description, but what the heck! i got A2 for chinese.. la dee dee da.

2006-08-10T14:13:00.000+08:00

ahh joy.. here i am, back again.. to say that its been a long time would be an understatement. hehe. well here is an update on my situation.. i am currently going beserk mugging for the prelims, along with all my friends. its seriously madness. please pray for us.
ohyeah my BIRTHDAY is coming up!! *yay!* *cue balloons and excited screams and those tube things which emit a funny sound when blown* hahas. i can't wait.. the whole year of buying presents for other ppl and its finally my turn.. hehe
wishlist:

body shop gift voucher
borders gift voucher
tops from topshop (:
a new phone!!
a mini cooper. (or a bently would do just fine:)
those cool pants from guess or british india..

oh i could go on and on.. but i will stop here..hahas.

o'level mt results tmr!! ahhhhhhhhhhhh. get on my knees and pray really really hard. i can't seem to decide on a grade at which i will let it go. i guess a c5. but i want a b. oh well, as the song goes, que sera sera.

turrah for now (:

2006-05-17T21:03:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!! okay so they've BEEN over for the past 5 days. i've just been too lazy to update. heh. argh i can't believe my days of vegging out are over.. back to the grindstone, and CHINESE O'S IN 2 WEEKS!! great. totally dreading the day of reckoning i.e. tomorow when we get our results back.. well whatever i get will be what God meant for me. *keeps telling myself that* i am gonna have to stop complaining so much.
we had FOUR HOURS of chinese today. yes you heard me right. FOUR HOURS. i was so gone by the time we left the theatrette..
cp pract went really well today. we managed to work out a passable version of "the time has come" *squeals* so cool. heh. praying that it won't be a flop tmr.. Lord be with us.

to God be the glory(:

2006-05-10T18:11:00.000+08:00

sanity eludes me. seriously. i can feel these everlasting exams SUCKING the life out of me. i have screwed up more papers than i can count on one hand. and that is BAD. hear me ppl? BADBADBAD. this "positivity" thing isn't working. nope not in the least.
i absolutely can't wait for the 11th of may. well technically tomorrow, but ever come across the expression "so near yet so far"? yeah that's what it feel like people.
SHOPPING. coming to a day near you. screams. the excitement that i feel cannot be put into words.. i will make it to that day. i will i will i will. all these ramblings seem very incoherent, but that is the state of my mind. mucked up and in a blur :(((

jesus loves you:)) [no matter your mental state][heh.]

2006-04-30T16:53:00.000+08:00

i am STONING. yesyes its hard to believe in light of the exam period, but i do have a valid reason. i am stoning in the literal sense of the word. i am studying WEATHERING. eurgh it is the bane of my existence.
well this post will be quick. just to let yall know that i will not be posting again until after this horrible period of time, and to tell all who are mugging like crazy and letting their exams rob them of their sanity to PRESS ON IN FAITH AND DON'T GIVE UP. God will be with us through it all if we ask Him to be. study hard peeps, and all the best for the exams (:

jesus loves you(:

2006-04-23T14:27:00.000+08:00

EPISODE #5 POINT 1
PRISCILLA LILY SAMUEL ! i may be the one stressing you out NOW ! but at the end of the day whn results come out... YOU ARE THE NUMBER ONE PERSON STRESSING MEEEE OUT OUT ! ! hehe. anyway, GET WELL SOON !=)
XINYUE

episode #5

2006-04-22T16:50:00.000+08:00

argh i feel like pulling my HAIR out!! why? cos im STRESSED. not because i was stressed in the first place, but because i see everyone else around me stressed. i am stressed cos i feel as if NOTHING is going into my head when i study. i am stressed because EVERYONE else seems to be working much harder than me. ahhhhhhhhhhhh. and to top that all off, i am SICK. Sick as in snotty-drivelling-mucus, scratchy-annoying-throat, throbbing-bleary-headed kinda sick.. i feel absolutely awful.. LORD HELP ME!!

[my new favourite song(:]
FROM THE INSIDE OUT: HILLSONG UNITED
a thousand times i've failed
still your mercy remains
should i stumble again
still i'm caught in your grace

everlasting your light will shine where all else fades
never ending, your glory goes beyond all fame

your will above all else
my purpose remains
the art of losing myself
in bringing you praise

my heart and my soul
i give you control
consume me from the inside out, Lord
let justice and praise
become my embrace
to love you from the inside out

everlasting, your light will shine where all else fades
never ending, your glory goes beyond all fame
and the cry of my heart is to bring you praise
from the inside out, Lord my soul cries out

i think the lyrics are absolutely beautiful. they speak of us relinquishing all control of our outer lives, letting God take over FROM THE INSIDE OUT. that's where worship truly starts, not the way we look when we're worshipping, the way we sing or dance, but its all about our HEART. i learnt this this week both from the song and from a conversation i had on thursday, where a friend really knocked some sense into me (: so that's what i shall be trying to do.

xy: thanks for being so nice on thursday during chinese.. and YOU are the #1 person stressing me out btw.. just thought that you should know(:
sonia: enjoyed the long chat we had.. rmb PATIENCE IS THE KEY. so eat your oats and get better ya hear!!

back to the grindstone..

episode #4 (finally!!)

2006-04-12T21:32:00.000+08:00

heyylo(: HAPPY SAINT HYDRANT DAY! don't know what that means?? well you shouldn't anyway. cos i just came up with it:D you know the expression "some days you're the dog, some days you're the hydrant"? well today, i was the hydrant. BIG TIME.
where should i start? firtly, anita beat me by half a mark (again!!!!) for geog test. the there was the HORRIGIBLE physics test. although i have to say that i had it coming cos i really barely studied. but thats besides the point:D heh. but the cherry on top of the perfect day was the absolutely completely utterly stupendously UN-DOABLE amath test. the topic i spent 2 and a half hours on yesterday had me making a stupid careless mistake. ARGH! i doubt i'll get more than 10 marks on this one. whoopee.
anyway after school, anita, sanya clarissa and me took a stroll to macs and treated ourselves to sundaes to destress. it was really fun, what with all our sarcastic tributes to linear law and real roots (don't ask). thanks for making the trip guys.. really enjoyed the time(:
with all this complaining, you probably think that im a whiny spoiled childish person, complaining about such trivial matters when there are much greater tragedies happening in the world. well what can i say, every dog has her day (anita, i know what you're thinking...) i just pray that this does not evolve into a behavioural trait (:

sonia: take care of yourself yeah.. don't stress. i'll stop nagging i promise but plsplspls take care. and THANK YOU for being my perpetual encourager and motivator. i really appreciate it(:
sanya and jo: i THANK YOU for your gracious apologies(:
xinyue: congrats on your phy paper:D you deserve it
banu: congrats on your geog paper.. i know you are thrilled to be doing well (:

happy Holy Week people.. remember what the Lord did for us all when he sent His Son to die for our sins and to rise again, victorious. thats the true meaning of good friday and easter.. with commercialisation and all that its important the we do not lose sight of the real reason we are celebrating. (:
turrah!

episode #3

2006-04-01T09:44:00.000+08:00

OH JOY.. this is the first morning in the last two months that i have been able to sleep in.(: which is why i am taking this opportunity to update and make up for the past few days where i've been lazy. I AM OFFICIALLY RESIGNED FROM YLC4!! *cheers* still wondering if i should join YA.. they are a fun buncha ppl.. at this juncture, i would like to give a shout-out to JANE, WEI QUAN, CHUN LONG, MUNIRAH & MICHELLE, the main comm of the YLC4 who sacrificed soo much to make the green teen camp a success.. you guys rock!

school was alright.. with all the usual antics of my crazy buncha friends.. (banu and sanya are still sticking to their accusation that i am heartless because of the stupid sharks fin soup episode) and xinyue was up to her usual nonsense (see her blog for the "FUNNY BONE" incident) OHYEAH and i made another $1 from dear dear sonia.. poor girl. it was HER idea to fine me 50 cents every time i said "whatever" to her, but instead we found out that she was actually the culprit!! hahas (: AHH assembly was pretty fun yesterday.. the percussion guys were SO COOL.. it was a totally new experience (esp after all the chinese dance troupes who have come to perform). but the highlight of it HAD to be when this girl who was trying out those whirly tube percussions accidentally whacked Mr Lim (the innocent photog-bystander) upside the head. oh gosh it was hilarious. but the FUNNIEST part was when he borrowed them from her to try them out himself and then (whether by accident or in revenge), smacked her on the mouth with them!!! AHHH xy and i had such a laugh.. hahas(: such fun..

anyway, gonna prepare for my FOUR-HOUR conversational apologetics course in church now.. still have not touched the hmwrk.. GAHHH. signing off..

episode #2

2006-03-29T16:40:00.000+08:00

i was basically vehemently accused of being a cold, heartless, ignorant and evil human being this morning by dear anita and banu for partaking of a bowl of shark's fin soup during daddy's birthday dinner last night. boy do they LUURRVE those sharks. to any unknowing bystander, it would have sounded like they were accusing me of eating their first born. (pun unintended) IN MY DEFENCE, i put aside the shark's fin in my soup and drank only the liquid (anita still argued that i drank the ESSENCES of the shark and that i still should be condemned). ANYWAY, this discussion was dissolved as soon as it started but i was not spared the occasional reminder(via glares and sniggers) during lunch and recess..

anyway, aside from all this madness about sharks or the lack of them, the day was pretty normal. emath MRT was pretty good.. hoping for full marks:D i will have to find a way to stop myself from kicking LU XINYUE all the way to Mexico every time she irritates me during lit.. or else she's gonna find herself in the land of quesadillas and the La Cucaracha really often.. hahas (: but i have to admit that it is pretty fun with her in lit.. it kinda brings this dry creek of a lesson some semblence of fun.. God puts these people into your life for a reason right? heh(:

alrighty, off to tuition now. ARGHHH. i will stay awake. i will stay awake. i will stay awake.....

episode #1

2006-03-28T21:09:00.000+08:00

and so here i am blogging for the very first time in my life. but before all that, i would like to give a shout out to LU XINYUE who set all this up for me!(: YOU ROCK!! hehe..
this is pretty interesting.. getting my thoughts out there into the world.. pathetically enough, it is a first for me.. but i could get used to this :D
well since this is sorta an introductory entry (esp for me), i will keep it short and snappy..
PEACE (:

2006-03-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

TEESTTTINNNNGGG !