argh i feel like pulling my HAIR out!! why? cos im STRESSED. not because i was stressed in the first place, but because i see everyone else around me stressed. i am stressed cos i feel as if NOTHING is going into my head when i study. i am stressed because EVERYONE else seems to be working much harder than me. ahhhhhhhhhhhh. and to top that all off, i am SICK. Sick as in snotty-drivelling-mucus, scratchy-annoying-throat, throbbing-bleary-headed kinda sick.. i feel absolutely awful.. LORD HELP ME!!

[my new favourite song(:]
FROM THE INSIDE OUT: HILLSONG UNITED
a thousand times i've failed
still your mercy remains
should i stumble again
still i'm caught in your grace

everlasting your light will shine where all else fades
never ending, your glory goes beyond all fame

your will above all else
my purpose remains
the art of losing myself
in bringing you praise

my heart and my soul
i give you control
consume me from the inside out, Lord
let justice and praise
become my embrace
to love you from the inside out

everlasting, your light will shine where all else fades
never ending, your glory goes beyond all fame
and the cry of my heart is to bring you praise
from the inside out, Lord my soul cries out

i think the lyrics are absolutely beautiful. they speak of us relinquishing all control of our outer lives, letting God take over FROM THE INSIDE OUT. that's where worship truly starts, not the way we look when we're worshipping, the way we sing or dance, but its all about our HEART. i learnt this this week both from the song and from a conversation i had on thursday, where a friend really knocked some sense into me (: so that's what i shall be trying to do.

xy: thanks for being so nice on thursday during chinese.. and YOU are the #1 person stressing me out btw.. just thought that you should know(:
sonia: enjoyed the long chat we had.. rmb PATIENCE IS THE KEY. so eat your oats and get better ya hear!!

back to the grindstone..